How Long Must One Feel So...

The previous post dealt not with flowery fiction, but with words found in books of wisdom and knowledge. Books of journeys, direction and growth..

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Let's say we fell for that flowery fiction, we deluded ourselves. At times we were foolish for falling for the words, other times, we felt there was enough trust to take the words as truth. Now what?
I have been thinking about how much of a right we have to feel wronged and hurt.. and I wrote this earlier this morning, very simple language. It's rather choppy and straight forward. and I'm sorry if I'm posting too much. Just tell me and I'll cut down hehe..

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We feel hurt for prolonged periods of time when we center our emotions around THIS world. We convince ourselves that we have been scarred, betrayed, wronged - for life - and this is where the damage to one's heart can become dangerous.
It is completely acceptable, even necessary, to feel unsettled and confused when one is confronted with situations that truly test one's capacity for inner and outer composure.
The issue is not how to feel, but how long one ought to nurture the initial negative, depressed and weighty feelings...
This is not a "black & white" area with strict boundaries of "right & wrong" - granted, different people have varying emotional capacities and will react differently - but this is more a matter of being conscious of the well-being of one's emotions and the effect they have on one's spirit, or soul..
Don't allow your initial negativity to grow into a subtle bitterness that coats, or even overpowers, your heart. It's really not worth it.
And sometimes, without realizing it, this ingrained and prolonged sense of hurt echoes subconsciously of "self-pity"- Woe is me! How could this happen to ME! O Inflated Ego, Eternally by My side.. (our ego seems to be our utmost loyal companion ;)
What I wonder and fear most about, however, is how to ensure one has grown and not digressed from any given unpleasant situation. Again, no defined scale can measure this internal growth, or lack thereof, and growth itself is admittedly relative. Yet we can follow the yardsticks of growth laid by the Absolute.
Perhaps the mystery of one's actual growth is something we are better off not visibly knowing...
Perhaps growth corresponds to a higher level of peace within?
Peace, love & wisdom. All God-given...
Ultimately, any given situation is thus bought back to the relationship between God & human, Creator and created - an opportunity to reaffirm and reignite the primordial covenant into one's very being.

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