hey mister dj, keep playing that song for me.

alright so im not really sure how descriptive to be in these bloggings of mine. crazy stuff has happened recently. im so exhausted really. like so exhausted i cannot even write.  so numb i cannot even feel. just walking around in the heat really.  i had been doing istikhara about staying or leaving earlier than august. i think i have made my decision Alhumdulilah. but basically this experience has taught me to trust my instincts. i cannot and will not ever deny my instincts again, because truthfully they are there for a reason. all too often in an effort to preserve my jovial and easy going nature i have just minded my own business and chose to ignore certain behaviors, but really that is not wise. baby girl... trust. your. instincts. they. are. there. for. a. reason. enough.

and yeah. i have to say THANK GOD. Alhumdulilah rabil alameen for salaha. THANK YOU ALLAH FOR SALAHA. may Allah bless and protect and nourish our love and friendship for the rest of this existence and in the akhira.

okay so.. mid june to end of june will be in pakistan for feez and soha's wedding stuffz. more heat. more fun. my cool uncle who is a clothing designer in karachi said he has a contact who wants me to design the calligraphy for a sufi shrine there... and he is going to take me to meet some folks there for the project. sigh. let's see how this goes. i was like 'i have my ijaza Alhumdulilah but i am not some expert you know!' and my mamoo being a fellow artist - only way more developed in the field with MANY clients and MANY years of experience was like 'yeah but you just have to be like I KNOW EVERYTHING!' HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. oh GOD. and i know like a few calligraphy masters in pakistan that would be way more qualified for this project than me. ya Allah. help us all. let's see where this goes.

anyways... back to america from there inshAllah. i am so looking forward to starting things up with the cville masjid. sigh sigh sigh. i love this. im going to be like some kind of 'muslim' michelangelo it seems. only hotter and cooler. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA yeah right! he wishes he was nearly as fly as me! :P

okay so... ramadan it seems will be in the states... and this is super cool, cause now i will have soha to help me with the kalemisi part of the cville project. oh yesssss Alhumdulilah. ill get her boncuk iğneler aplenty. she better comply :)

oh gosh... and then there is grad school. haaaaaaaahahaha. bismillah. here we go. here we go. here we go.

tears in your eyes

"I have tested all manner of pleasures, and known every

variety of joy; and I have found that neither intimacy with

princes, nor wealth acquired, nor finding after lacking, nor

returning after absence, nor security after fear and repose in

a safe refuge - none of these things so powerfully affects the

soul as the union with the beloved... The fresh springing of

herbs after the rains, the glitter of flowers when the night

clouds have rolled away in the hushed hour between dawn

and sunrise, the splashing of waters as they run through the

stalks of golden blossoms, the exquisite beauty of white

castles encompassed by verdant meadows - not lovelier is any

of these than union with the well-beloved... Truly that is a

miracle of wonder surpassing the tongues of the eloquent,

and far beyond the range of the most cunning speech to

describe; the mind reels before it, and the intellect stands

abashed." 

- Ibn Hazm d.1064