Saturday, October 22, 2011
baby girl
when you feel that there is nothing left to lose... there is everything left to gain, inshAllah.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
keep his wave on swim wa waves on swim so they hate on him
For a long time now I have been thinking of not wearing hijab anymore. I am not sure who to even talk to about this with. It is a painful decision that I have been putting off as I do love it. I love it. But there are things about it that I want to disassociate with entirely.
I feel I am the same person with or without it. Piety resides in the heart, not in what you are or are not wearing. It disgusts me how muslim communities now a days see a beard or a scarf and automatically assume piety. Oh mashAllah they think! What a good person! What rubbish. Even more rubbish is how much religious discourse revolves around these things. Has religion and spirituality come to this? Some watered down superficial symbolic rubbish.
I do not want to identify with communities like this. I avoid them like the plague and I feel that by wearing a headscarf I get clumped in with them... or they enthusiastically claim me. No thank you, no thank you, no thank you. I have started avoiding muslim people in general as well. Or people that are over zealously PROJECTING an image of superficial religiosity.
Religion is a personal journey that allows the creation to reach the Creator. It is a beautiful and deeply personal relationship that has nothing to do with anyone else.
Hijab offers me many blessings and protections in society. I do acknowledge that and I love how it prevents me from dealing with vices of conceit in many ways. But at the end of the day, I want to enjoy what Allah has created me as. Not for society, not to show off, not to inflate my own ego, but to appreciate a creation that Allah has created.
So what if I want to wear pretty dresses and style my hair. Who cares if I want to go out and feel the blessings of the wind and sun.
I have also learned that those that are so quick to judge are EXACTLY the types whose judgement should not be cared for at all. I am thinking when I come back to the states for grad school it would be the time to try things without it anymore. Maybe I would decide to put it on again, who knows?
Please Allah always guide me. Show me the way to please You and show me the way to Love.
I feel I am the same person with or without it. Piety resides in the heart, not in what you are or are not wearing. It disgusts me how muslim communities now a days see a beard or a scarf and automatically assume piety. Oh mashAllah they think! What a good person! What rubbish. Even more rubbish is how much religious discourse revolves around these things. Has religion and spirituality come to this? Some watered down superficial symbolic rubbish.
I do not want to identify with communities like this. I avoid them like the plague and I feel that by wearing a headscarf I get clumped in with them... or they enthusiastically claim me. No thank you, no thank you, no thank you. I have started avoiding muslim people in general as well. Or people that are over zealously PROJECTING an image of superficial religiosity.
Religion is a personal journey that allows the creation to reach the Creator. It is a beautiful and deeply personal relationship that has nothing to do with anyone else.
Hijab offers me many blessings and protections in society. I do acknowledge that and I love how it prevents me from dealing with vices of conceit in many ways. But at the end of the day, I want to enjoy what Allah has created me as. Not for society, not to show off, not to inflate my own ego, but to appreciate a creation that Allah has created.
So what if I want to wear pretty dresses and style my hair. Who cares if I want to go out and feel the blessings of the wind and sun.
I have also learned that those that are so quick to judge are EXACTLY the types whose judgement should not be cared for at all. I am thinking when I come back to the states for grad school it would be the time to try things without it anymore. Maybe I would decide to put it on again, who knows?
Please Allah always guide me. Show me the way to please You and show me the way to Love.
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