brother guilt

today i say goodbye to you

and you look down on me thinking i was going to cut another key

but i won't look at you for another second

we paid our dues together in a maelstrom of anguish

i won't apologize to you anymore, my beloved mistakes

asking for a chance to undo inhaled air and heart beats is sorry enough

i won't add another brick to your temple

won't nail another shingle on your roof

walking down this road to you was a blessing

it was destiny

i found my reflection in your corridors

my bare feet stepped on broken glass as i repaired every window

there isn't a door that i didn't open and a corner that i didn't weep in

i trapped myself in each room and waited until i swept all the ashes i spread

pulling my hair, i dragged a pitiful body up and down your staircase

and extinguished my heart while lighting your chandelier

i bled a carpet to fill your halls

the melted candles that burned from flames of ignorance have been replaced

and as i walk out, i know i still have matches in my pocket

but i am burning your map tonight