I have been having the same sorta recurring dream for awhile now, not in terms of events but place. It is like a city that I am in or walking around in or driving around in and I keep coming to the same place. I know I have never really been there before in the physical sense, and it seems to be a mix of a few places I have been to... seems to be parts Richmond, parts of nova, parts of cville, somethings from my imagination, etc. And I really don't like the place very much, but seem to be stuck there. Maybe if I have time at some point from the birnamij I will draw up a picture of it and post it. But I think the place keeps 'growing', its so strange... more things to discover and see (depending on my vehicle of transport). And the weather is different from dream to dream, it can be sunny, foggy, rainy, dank, whatever but the feeling I always get is that of glum. I really don't like the place at all, mostly because it makes me feel sick, and I don't know why, and I want to get out of it, so it's like I am testing the limits to where the place ends, but either I find a new place in the same city, or I end up in a location I have been to already.
Even more haunting is the fact that sometimes people or a particular person shows up in the dreams and I visit a particular house repeatedly in the dream, and really it's painful. Mostly because it is a house I want to stay at desperately, but it's not mine, I don't belong, or I am not welcomed. Every time I go it's like I have to sneak in or something strange like that, what is this place?! And then I have to tip toe around and not get caught by the owners, kinda like I am playing Maniac Mansion. Video game dreams, sounds fun right? hah yeah right! These dreams really aren't normal. Next time this dream happens and its a lucid one (because sometimes this happens), I am going to try to kill myself in it.
I don't get much sleep these days and I sometimes wake up more tired than I was before I went to sleep. Misery.
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