I don't have much to say and I haven't for awhile. So maybe I should try to describe my current state of being. I feel really displaced. On top of that, I feel great anxiety over possibly having this feeling for the rest of my life. I have been jumping ship to ship to ship to ship to ship, hoping to find some place where I belong. And so far it is really nowhere here, or there, or anywhere. I am both restless and adamant about searching, until I find solitude - I am thinking it may not be in a physical state of being, but in a mental or spiritual state of being. I am opened to that, and so there is hope for me. I wish there was someone to grab me and shake me out of this. But there is noone. Is this how life goes on?
I am already petrified enough, so please don't say yes.
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